During this past week I think I might have finally realized a fact that I should have learned in high school or college. I have realized I over think things way too much. I am about to go a little emo here but relax its fine I figured everything out eventually. I had a very fun enjoyable last week (minus getting sick and now an ear infection I am still battling) and leading into the weekend I was excpecting that to continue however that was not really in the cards for me it seemed.
Friday was a beautiful warm spring day and I really had a craving to grill out. I started to invite a few friends that live right near my house just to come over after work Friday to grill out. I made homemade salsa and guacamole. The only people that participated were my roommates Jana and Beth. I didnt think much about everyone else not being able to come over as some were out of town, others already had plans, etc. Saturday was the 137th running of the Kentucky Derby which I have always liked and even more so after last year where I actually went to the Derby. I wasnt sure what to do for this race, I really wanted to watch it but I didnt know anyone watching it. While talking to my roommate about the Derby she invited me out to her families Derby Party in the burbs. At first I was very skeptical; one I never go to the burbs, two I would be like the youngest person there, three I felt like I sorta invited myself and Beth was just being nice to invite me along cause I was whining about not having anything to do. I know that I shouldnt think things like that but that for some reason was the first thing that poped into my head.
I really had a lot of fun out in the burbs. I think it was my first time ever to go to burbs just because. I have gone out to the burbs I think three time before not for work related things. I went out to Naperville once to get dinner with my friend Mary when she lived out there before she moved into the city. I went to run the Morton Arbiritum 5k with Rachael and then went to dinner with my friend Allison from MSU when she was in the area for a work thing. This trip was different, it was just a trip for fun; no time limits no agendas no nothing. I feel like I did the true burbs thing of going to a mall; it has been such a long time since I went to a mall. Living in the city malls dont really exist like they do in the burbs and all the stores I would find in the mall have stand alone stores that I go to. The Derby party its self was great too. Though the party didnt particuallry need to be in the burbs but it added to the fun of being in a real house with a yard and a dog and everything. The horse that I got in the drawing for betting was Shackleford which was looking great to be the winner till about 200 yards to go when the rest of the field passed him. After the party Beth dropped me off at Metra and I took that back into the city. It was my first experience taking Metra by myself. Also I think it might be the only time I have taken Metra sober as normally I am taking Metra to Ravinia.
Once I got home from the burbs Saturday started my real emo moment. Since I didnt go out Friday night I really wanted to do something Saturday night. I got home met up with Jana and Arren but once I got to George Street Pub they were just getting ready to leave to go to the Apartment which I had no desire to go to. I am not really liking the Depaul, douche bars all that much currently and The Apartment might be the worst of all the Depaul bars. So I didnt go with them instead I tried to find some other people who might be out near me. Most people were out but I just felt like if I joined them I would just be inviting myself and crashing so I just went home and watched TV. I was just really in a bad mood Saturday night which shaded the fun I had just had. I went on to thinking no one likes me and wants to hang out with me and thats why no one came over to grill out Friday and blah blah. Sunday I woke up and tried to just think it was a new day which turns outs it was.
Like I said I figured out everything and dropped the emo shit. Sunday my friend Sarah called me up wanting to go to lunch, Monday Newman asked me to come to trivia with him and his group, Kate asked me to do dinner Monday but we ended up doing that Tuesday instead, my friend Jason called me up wanting to go grab drinks, and Danielle called to ask if I wanted to join them to watch the Wings game. So while over the weekend I may have had a lapse in judgment and might have been way over analysizing everything and thinking I had no friends, I am reminded that I am stupid sometimes. I am so greatful for all the friends I have who remind me just by being themselves to stop over thinking on the random little things that didnt go the way I wanted them to over the weekend. I am full of shit and people do really like to hang out with me and for that I thank everyone who I know for helping me learn this fact I should have learned a long time ago that sometimes people are busy and sometimes things dont go the way I want but in the end I have some really awesome friends and people do really care about me. Thanks!
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